It seems i have had a bit of rage building in my system. I felt something was going on inside me because i just felt pissed off at the world for the last couple of weeks. Even my friends noticed something was different. I can't tell you what it is from other the major life change i have had to deal with.
So there i am Saturday morning lying in bed and getting mad about nothing. Don't know what it was but i felt like i was about to burst with anger. I felt like a pressure cooker ready to explode.
I get up and start cutting the grass. I am cutting the front yard and everything is fine. I am starting to relax, i guess the exercise helps relieve stress. I stop the mower and push it to the back yard. When i start the mower back up it doesn't want to run right. The RPM's keep going up and down. I fiddle with it trying to adjust it and it just didn't work. I go to the garage to get a wrench but for some reason i grabbed my sledge hammer. I walk back to the mower and commence to beat the shit out of it with a sledge hammer. I totally destroyed that mower. When i realized what i had done and had to buy a new mower, i went to pounding on it again. I just couldn't stop. I grabbed it by the handle and started swinging it into a tree. This went on for several minutes and when i stopped i felt a little better.
I calmed down and then went to buy a new mower. $250 dollars later i come home with my new mower and i am pissed that a lawn mower cost me $250 so i grab my sledge and go get some off my old mower. I work it over for a few minutes and then chunk it in the dumpster.
I finish cutting the yard and my world is back in harmony for now.
Looking back one might argue that it was a little extreme but it was my mower, my money and i am a grown damn man and i will spend it as i see fit.